Symptoms & Reactions

Keeping Up Despite the Pain

Dear Diary,

I’m in pain today, and I’m trying so hard to keep up with everything. I received my book in the mail—the one that Dr. M, the Lyme doctor recommended, “The Beginner’s Guide to Lyme Disease” by Nicola McFadzean. Dr. M wants me to be as informed as possible about this controversial disease. I had no idea how much conflicting and confusing information there is out there. Sifting thought it all is so exhausting. And this book is thick. I can feel myself slipping into overload mode.

Thankfully, today was a better day than Saturday and Sunday, as far as breathing goes. Whew! My breaths are less labored, and my pain is bearable again. I’m back to my norm—not a good norm but it’s mine, and I know it well.

My back and neck, on the other hand, were still very painful. I saw my physical therapist today, and I told her all about the chiropractor guy. She said my back muscles were twisted and still very tight. He didn’t do me any favors, she said. That’s her kind way of saying that he screwed me over. Ugh! Thankfully, my physical therapy session today was all about incorporating gentle massage and a heat treatment to loosen things up and hopefully to alleviate some of my pain and restricted movement.

With that, I went home and actually allowed my body to sleep. Not intentionally mind you. I’d planned to work on my taxes after writing a little bit. But, before I knew it, as I sat in front of my laptop, my eyes were closed, and my head leaned back on my sofa. An hour later, I woke up surprisingly refreshed. It felt good to accept my body’s limitations and need for rest, instead of fighting it like an obstinate child.




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